New Beginnings

For whatever reason, I find myself unable to sleep through the night before a new rotation.  It's been a reoccurring theme; a trend that isn't likely to change anytime soon.

It really wasn't until I got to this place in my medical training that I realized how many hurdles one has to overcome, and how overwhelming things can become.  Because on that first day, it's more than applying medical knowledge. It's getting to know new people, learning new expectations, integrating yourself into the flow and recognizing the routines.  A new rotation is like a perpetual interview, and just when you've got the interviewer figured out you are sent to a new interview, another rotation.

Habit is a funny thing.  Most people have delegated so much of their lives to habit that you don't even realize it until something disrupts those routines.  Most people get up at the same time every day.  They have an order to brushing their teeth and washing their face.  They always go for a specific coffee mug or read a certain section of the paper first.  I feel like I haven't had my routine for the past year, and there's something very unsettling about that.

I guess this is why I yearn for the light at the end of the tunnel (May 8th, 2011 to be exact).  I want a little more routine in my otherwise chaotic world.